Stories from my childhood (written at age 8)

Tiny Elves....
I was walking though the woods one day and saw two tiny elves playing by a tree. They didn't see me, so I hid behind a tree and then I said hello and played with them. And then I went home!

I hear you Frogs!
My frogs name is Figgy. My frog is a girl. I hope she is going to win tomorrow. My frog is pretty. My frog jumped 67 1/2 cnm yesterday.

The Dirty bottle
One day I found a dirty old bottle in a trash can. I took the bottle to my garage and tried to rub off some of the dirt. You'll never believe what happened. A genie popped out and gave me 3 wishes. I wished for a cat, a pony and some skates.

What are you afaid of? Why am I afraid?

Well I was about to write a blog about feeling trapped in my own home, but now the subject has changed. Today at church I was reminded how Satan wants us dead, so we won’t go out and spread God’s word. I wondered, how was I supposed to spread the word of God since I can’t drive anywhere, or work..since I'm in bed a lot due to illness. How can I be that warrior for God..Then He reminded me how a beautiful little blond girl spread His fame by sharing about her illness online, and how He was with her family and is with her family every day in the valley and on the mountain top. He reminded me that because of this several people became His children. God also reminded me that another starting point would be becoming friends with my neighbors, assisting them and living like Jesus in front of them. Why does this thought scare me to death? I am not ashamed of my Jesus, if any of them asked me; I would tell them what I believe. Why have I become accustomed to staying here in my small apartment alone? If Jesus lived here, I'm pretty sure, he would not stay inside all day, watching TV or sleeping. Were any of the disciples scared? They were before they were filled with the Holy Spirit. I need a renewing of the Holy Spirit. Why does that scare me as well? Why is there so much fear in my life? What am I afraid of…I'm afraid of meeting new people, I'm afraid of being rejected,I'm afraid I won't stop gaining weight, no matter how hard I try to beat it. I'm afraid of seizures..I know of two people who have died while having a seizure in their sleep, will that happen to me? I'm afraid I will never pay off my debt. I'm afraid of being alone, which is ironically weird because if I would only not be afraid of meeting people then I wouldn’t be alone. God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of love, power, and a sound mind and yet my mind is not sound. Forgive my heart Lord, Forgive my unbelief, Forgive my doubt. Holy Spirit rekindle the fire in me..I want to wake up excited to share your news..I want my neighbors to be annoyed with me because I can’t shut up…I want to be like you!

My Beloved Child!

My Beloved Child,

Singleness is a blessing and not a curse. As your father, I am longing to show you my heart and watch while you grow in me. Just for us to be together.

I have called you away from home, the past, and even your family. You see, I want to develop our relationship. I want so badly to show you my love and let you get caught up in my presence. I wish you could wake up rejoicing in each new day that I give you and just wonder what adventure I have planned for today. You and I have the whole world as our playground.

But the one thing I wish most of all, is that you cherish these moments alone with me as much as I cherish them. Because you see, I know one day I will have to release part of you to another man. Yes, this man will be the one I choose and set apart for you, because I want tgo bless you. Yes, marriage is wonderful, and it is a gift from me, but so is singleness. Singleness is a time of seperation, but also a time of learning to be strengthened and fulfilled only in me. I have longed for these days when we would be alone together, and i could teach you the meaning of true love and intimacy.

First I want you to be fulfilled in me alone and see me as the one to meet your every need. I love you too much to give you a blessing too early because I know, it would then become a curse, yes, your husband is out there, and it won't be long before I bring the promises to pass, but I want us to delight in every minute I made for us. You see, I know the day is coming when I will have to face the hurt of every father, when He walks the woman that he still recalls as a helpless little girl, down the long church aisle to give away the hand that grew so quickly from a child to the woman now by his side.

As father and daughter begin hand in hand down the aisle, they will always treasure those last special moments before the father gives away his little girl's hand to come the wife of another man. that is the road we are on and OH! I cling to every last moment that I have you completely by my side.

I am that father, and I see the alther approaching ever so quickly. I just wish these moments were special to you. My heart is grieved, for it seems you are running toward the alter, content to let me creep slowly on behind. Won't you rejoice in these moments w/ me? My child, I am your father, and I love you with a love beyound what you can believe. I would love to have you here in my lap forever, but I know that would not be best for you. You see, it was my love that birthed this desire for marriage in you. I loved you so much, that I wanted to give an example of my love in the flesh. Someone who would physically be there to hug you, because you longed to feel my loving arms that wern't there in the flesh. I wiped away the tears when you wanted so badly to audibly hear my voice whisper, "Ilove you." I felt the pain when you needed a loving smile to melt all those fears away.

I am the answer to every one of these needs, but my love is strong enough to send you someone in the flesh to love you through. So don't be sad or discouraged when you see others getting married. Don't think I am making you wait because you are a hopeless cause. Maybe I just want you all to myself a little longer. Please don't run away from these days in search of greener pasture. I planned this time just for us.

I love you....Your Father, God

Kathryn & Legacy * Viennese Waltz - Your Guardian Angel

Is God To Blame!?

Do you ever wonder why things happen? I mean why did God choose me to go through certain valleys and others to go through completely different valleys? Is it ever ok to be mad at God?Why does he allow pain and sorrow? These questions are basic questions that have been asked and answered so many times. I wonder what goes through the mind of God when he sets a plan in action. He sees the future right, so why does he want to see me cry, why cant a lesson be learned with a joyful heart instead of a hurting heart, or a fearful heart. Why are certain people brought to life then stolen away. When things are dark...Is God to Blame, or Is God to Thank?

Pray for this Precious Family!!!

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Looking for the Son of God

There are some religions who aside from Jesus, lift up a man, saint, or even Mary. Respectfully I agree that Mary and the saints should never be forgotten, but to worship is not what God wanted from us. I love reading stories in the Bible and learning that the people we hold to high sometimes are simply human beings just as we are. People who had doubts, fears and temptations. Although it is easy to forget this, being that they made it into the Bible. I was reading Luke today and came across this verse. Luke 2:46, After three days they found him in the temple courts, sitting amongst the teachers, listening to them and asking them questions. Imagine with me Mary and Joseph during these three days. What must have gone through their minds as they looked for the Son of God! Walking through the streets of Jerusalem, probably running through the streets, calling out Jesus, Jesus with no answer. Mary who had found favor with God and was given the amazing honor no one else in the world will ever know to have this child, has now lost him. What must she been thinking. "I will never find favor with God again" She was probably afraid of God, what might he do to her, or afraid that the Son of God may be hurt or die before he can accomplish God's will. The fate of the world is in this child and she has lost him. Do you think Mary and Joseph were mad at each other, blaming each other? Joseph may have thought, "I knew I should have divorced her, then I wouldn't be in this mess." Maybe he thought Mary is so young, she herself is only a child why is she the mother of God. If I were Mary I might have thought, "This man is supposed to be the provider and protector of our family and he lost the Son of God!!" Verse 26 states, When his parents saw him, they were astonished. His mother said to him, "Son, why have you treated us like this? Your father and I have been anxiously searching for you." To which Jesus replies, "Why were you searching for me?" Didn't you know I had to be in my Father's house?" In some versions of scripture it states, "Didn't you know I would be about my Father's business. Jesus the boy may have thought, you both know why I am here on this earth, why are you afraid, why are you upset and anxious? God has promised to use me to save the world, why would you doubt?

Have you spent time "looking for the Son of God"? Have you felt like he was gone from your midst and you anxiously search afraid of what might happen when you find him. Imagine being face to face with your maker. Imagine him taking your hands in his and Him looking into your eyes. Imagine him saying, "Why were you searching for me? Didn't you know I would be about my father's business." What exactly is our Father's business. God being a Father, I believe taking care of his children. Mary and Joseph were afraid, and rightly so, they were human beings, they were not perfect. We are human beings, imperfect in so many ways. We seem to search for what is right there waiting for us to sit at his feet and take him in Jesus, himself did this very thing in the Temple, while his parent's searched, he listened to the teachers and asked questions. Mary, the sister of Martha did this when Jesus was at her home speaking, she sat at his feet in awe. So many times I have thought, like Thomas, if I could only see Jesus visually, audibly hear him or feel his arms around me, it would be easier to believe. Where would faith come in or what would we have in Heaven to look forward too, if we could experience that now. Much like being married has certain things we can look forward to, so does seeing Jesus face to face. For now I see Jesus in the creation around me, I hear Jesus when the birds outside my window sing or when the waves are crashing against the shore. I feel Jesus when a cool breeze blows by or when my nieces and nephews are excited to see me and run to give me a hug. The Son of God is all around me, always doing his Father's business, Jesus help me to be like you, always about your Father's business.